Why I’m not buying anymore video games!

Hey peeps, hope you’re doing well and life is good. This blog I’ll be talking about something I wanted to get off my chest. And this is basically what I think and more power to you if you disagree. But I have to say this. 

This is a long time coming. I feel like I have to say it. This is what my blogs are going to be about. Me saying my opinions. I know I’ll have naysayers and ppl who disagree with me. But that’s more power to them. But this is how I feel. Better let it out than in. So here we go

Video games these days sucked!!!

Now it’s not to every game out there. There’s still good games now & then. Like God Of War, Spider-Man, etc. But these days it’s pretty piss poor. So many games nowadays is online multiplayers with so much pay to win mechanics that it kills the fun of video games. Like I just hate what video games are becoming. 

Every game nowadays is all live services and grindyness on purpose so you pay more to play the fucking game & it keeps going like a vicious circle. Where’s the joy in that? I don’t get it. Why is it every game these days is basically a bank robber holding a gun to your money, demanding more money. Is that what video games are these days? Makes me sick. 

Whatever happen to buy the game and enjoy it? Sure there’s a small few who still do that. Like God Of War, Spider-Man, Nintendo games and some Indie games. But it’s getting rarer these days. And all the top selling games are these fucking battle royale games that are repetitive in nature but ppl are addicted to it. I played it to see for myself and it’s pretty shit but more power to ppl who do enjoy these games somehow. I’ll take games like God Of War over Fortnite any day. 

I hate it’s all going to this direction. It’s like pro wrestling. I haven’t watched it in years cause I hate it and see the flaws clearly. I used to be until it was doing the wrong things and it was not enjoyable to watch. It was boring, repetitive, mediocre, insulting my intelligence, etc imo it was junk, pure junk. So I stop watching it. I’ve moved on. I enjoy combat sports as replacements like Boxing & MMA. I’m becoming more into watching films & TV now since video games are becoming pretty cunty. Especially the AAA companies like EA, Activision, Bethesda, 2K, WB Games, Ubisoft, etc. All of these companies are basically making these shite online games for money, nothing else. And tbh it is pissing me off. I got this meme here... 

This proves one of my points. Back in the 00’s we had sooo many awesome games coming out left & right. None of them had micro transactions, loot crates, season passes, etc. While the two Battlefront games that EA made had so much of those that it made those games pure shite. And we got so many shite games now. Fallout 76 shite, Battlefield 5 shite, FIFA shite, so on & so on. A lot of them are repetitive and boring to play. And I know ppl love those games cause it’s better with friends. But here’s my point I want to make. If you & friends jump of a cliff and hurt yourself badly, would that be fun cause you’re with friends? If they dare you to drink piss and they do & you all puke ur guts out, would that be fun cause “it’s fun with friends”? No it won’t. Cause you may be on a wheelchair or in jail cause ur stupid to do that. That’s why I hate fail videos. It’s basically everything I hate about ppl. Stupid ppl doing stupid things and it’s famous. Like wtf is going on? How is stupidity winning, while proper good hard working ppl get fuck all. Also there’s a lot of great games that are overlooked or shafted cause they don’t have multiplayer. That breaks my heart. It kinda makes me question ppl’s taste. But more power to ppl. I just don’t get it and I never will. But I’ll be playing my retro games. And collect them. 

Yeah it’s just breaks my fucking heart that video games are becoming this way currently. Greed over gameplay, quantity over quality, pay to win over buy it once & enjoy the experience. What is going on? 

I love video games so I really don’t like where it’s heading. I know I’ll have ppl disagreeing with me and I’m not expecting this blog to be popular or well liked. But this is how I feel about one of my favourite hobbies. But I’m confident that I have more ppl agree with me than the naysayers think. There’s plenty of ppl who are feeling the same as me. Especially in my personal life. A lot of my friends agree it’s becoming more like glorified gambling machines in disguise these days. Well I won’t be buying these games and I’m not even pre ordering anymore. Hell I haven’t pre ordered in ages. No one should especially since their release in a broken, buggy state like Fallout 76. Best to wait it out. And you’ll get games cheaper that way. 

But I’m not in a rush. Sure there’s a few good games coming out but I rather wait it out than buy it now. Especially since games are too expensive these days. I can’t afford it. It’s more cheaper to get a Blu Ray, subscribe to Netflix, etc. 

If I was a PC gamer I would wait for the Stream deals cause you save so much cash it’s unreal. But a lot of games these days aren’t worth playing. Too greedy, unfun and pure rubbish. And I hate ppl are defending this crap. Like this is normal now. I hate this is normal. Back in the day it was normal to get great games left & right. I grew up loving every game coming out. It was great times and I’m sticking to those games. If games these days are just glorified gambling live service multiplayer esports games then keep it. I don’t want it. Like fail videos and most of YouTube these days. You can keep it. More power to you. 

I’ll be right here. Enjoy the PS3, Xbox 360, PS2, PS1, Nintendo and single player games. Even a few current games. Like the new Metro game perhaps but it’ll be later rather than sooner. 

I do love it if video games was back to giving us awesome games left & right and we just pay it & enjoy it. 

I’m not a anti multiplayer guy. Yous probably think that by reading this blog but I enjoy multiplayer as an extra feature with friends locally. Hate everything has to be online. Imo it encourages ppl to be lazy and anti social. I rather have a local multiplayer day with mates. Have a few laughs and all that face 2 face. Without phones. Just us playing superb games. Like Goldeneye as an example or Super Smash Bros or Mario Kart. Those were the days. Now I feel like the magic is gone due to laziness and greed. I know I’m coming off as a negative prick but this is how I feel. I don’t like the way video games is heading. So of course I’m saying how I feel cause I love video games. I care. 

I do want it to be better for everyone. Imo right now, this is definitely not the way. Hopefully it will change. Like I said I’m not alone in this opinion of mine so I’m confident that more ppl will see that this is not ok and stop buying it & buy retro games instead. The days when it was awesome all the time. It’s growing. 

I just want good games that I’ll buy & enjoy. Not buy & keep buying, is that too much to ask? 

Anyway I hope you like my blog about my little statement on my views on current video games. As a gamer I have to say what’s in my mind. Get it off my chest and feel like I do. If you disagree, that’s fine. It’s just my opinion. Just take this blog with a grain of salt. Like I said more power to you. 😊

Whatever you agree or disagree thank you for reading this blog. It does mean a lot to me. Yous are the best. So until the next blog take care, much love and make video games great again. Buy it & play it for the right reasons. 

My Love For The Resident Evil franchise (the films don’t count)

Hey peeps hope you are all well. This blog is basically a one I wanted to do for a while. If yous probably don’t know. I’m a big video game fan. Have been since the Super NES days watching my brother play Zelda and Mario. But I didn’t play games growing up. Always outdoors skating or doing sports. Til I reach my teens & at 2000 I started playing games for real. I got myself a PS1 and I remember my first games were Tony Hawk Pro Skater 2 and of course Resident Evil. I was hooked on it immediately. I always love horror films and so playing a horror game was like a match made in heaven. The Resident Evil game was Resident Evil 3. I play through it so many times. I was really good on it and the rest is history. Been a hardcore gamer since and I don’t look back.

Now as you see on the title I think the movies don’t count. I don’t want to talk about them since I’ll be dead ranty lol. I really hate the films. So I rather not talk about them. I don’t think their Resident Evil at all. I will say Degeneration, the anime film is really overlooked. I thought that was a decent flick.

Give it a watch. I feel that one was not bad.

But the video games is where is that. And there’s so many Resident Evil games out there:

That’s not all of them but that’s lots. A lot of awesome ones, great ones, ok ones and yeah awful ones too (looking at u Operation Raccoon City). There’s so many. And there’s different, they don’t stay the same. Most change the gameplay and the genre a bit. Not many video game franchise can pull that off well or be successful at it. Look at Star Fox Adventures for example on the GameCube. Ppl remember Star Fox as a Sci Fi shoot em up. But they change everything about it in Adventures, while it was imo an alright game. It didn’t succeed at all. It underperformed. A lot of times changing the format of the game is very risky. And like Star Fox Adventures, they don’t sell well or that good. But there’s Resident Evil that does it well and is very successful at it.

Like this gem for example. This is the proper first one they done where they changed the gameplay and it’s different. But in an awesome way cause it still felt like an Resident Evil game. While they were Resident Evil games that changed their gameplay style before like Survivor & the Outbreak games. Survivor was a on rail shooter and the outbreak games were online co op ones but they weren’t good. They were on rail shooter Resi that came out later in these games:

Which were done way better than Survivor. They were decent games. But as excellent as 4. 4 was so awesome that it influenced other games afterwards. It was awesome. But it was also a sign of mediocre Resi games to come. Cause afterwards Resi lost its ID and it was leaning more towards action. Like Resi 5, 6, Operation Raccoon City & Umbrella Corps. None of them were good like 4. 4 at least still felt like a proper Resident Evil game, it had balance between action & horror. While those ones didn’t. Around that time it wasn’t a good time to be a fan of the franchise. The games were what the films were, over the top action Michael Bay style experience. Is that what Resident Evil is? No it was about horror and survival. Hints created the term Survival Horror. Cause the first games perfected it. They were masterpieces. 5 & 6 weren’t overwhelmingly bad games but weren’t good either. Operation Raccoon City & Umbrella Corps were awful. The only Resident Evil games that were still had good & were proper Resi games was these:

Revelations 1 & 2. Imo underrated games. These were pretty good games but sadly they’ll been hidden gems due the Resi games being mediocre since after 4. So ppl probably thought it was more action Resi games that no one likes. But it’s not, it’s more like proper Resi games if they continue the balance of action & horror that 4 was. But not many ppl played these. It is worth getting. Especially their cheap to get these days. Definitely worth playing. The first ur Chris, Jill again and in the second one you’re Barry, Barry’s daughter & Claire. Among other characters, they are good. Definitely worth a playthrough. But sadly at the time they weren’t popular as they should be & Resi really needed to be saved since the recent games were losing fans, me included and of course the films sucked lol. But luckily we had a rereleases of two awesome games that were on the GameCube originally.

These were brilliant. Especially the remake of the first. Both getting rereleased on the Xbox One & PS4 was a kick that the franchise needed. Both are the Resident Evil of old. The return to the classic fixed angle camera, survival horror we know and love about Resident Evil. Luckily unlike the underrated Revelations games. They sold and ppl love it & introduce newer fans too. Ppl wanted more of this and I was happy that they rerelease these. They were awesome and the remake of the first is a pure masterpiece. The original first is badly outdated so the remake of the first was needed. And they did originally in 2002 I think and it was awesome then, still is now. 0 was also brilliant too. Which was a prequel of the first game. Where you play as Rebecca Chambers & Billy Coen (not related to the filmmakers btw lol) in that one. And you can swap characters in that one & it was done very well. Had a co op feel to it, even though it was single player lol. Still awesome. So both were awesome games and I just love it. But that was a sign of more awesome things to come. Basically it was a comeback & it’s awesome as ever. Next one was a full on horror and it was very awesome:

This is another a change of the gameplay and style. This time is in first person. But it was a success and it was brilliant. If you play this on PS4 you’ll play this on the VR. Which is a recommendation cause it’s an experience that everyone should have. It really is so awesome and it’s scary. Probably the scariest of all the Resident Evil games imo and it was better for it. It’s what us the fans wanted and gotten & some. It is a really great game. Great atmosphere, solid gameplay, story line is good too and it was Resident Evil. It was a solid game that nobody should overlooked.

And yeah it was back to it’s roots & Capcom was listening to us & giving us the goods. Resident Evil was back. But ppl wanted another remake. We already got the first game remade so what next...in a lot of ppl’s opinion the best one:

Resident Evil 2 and those are my copies of both games. Resi 2 is where my journey into playing video games begin. Still have my original that I got in 99. Still holds up. Still a masterpiece but the remake is a masterpiece too.

This part of my blog is my review of the new remake.

So where to begin. Well ppl (myself included) wanted this remake for years. Hell I wanted it after the first remake back on the GameCube. And now after all these years we got it & its imo the best remake ever. Not just in video games but of all time. It kept the feel of Resident Evil 2 but in a different modern way and it works. It really does. It’s Resident Evil 2 but better. Everything about it is a pure masterpiece. The atmosphere, the characters, the graphics, the gameplay, the horror, the replayablity, the unlockables, how there’s no loot boxes/micro transactions, upcoming free updates , etc. I could keep going but yous get the point lol. I don’t want to spoil it for yous. I feel yous all should play it and you will love it, trust me lol. It really is awesome really. Imo this is what they should’ve done after 4. It’s has the same gameplay style of 4 but it’s more a survival horror than a blend of action & horror. No it’s more survival horror like the original Resident Evil 2. It captures the feel of the original but with its own edge to it and it totally works. It maybe GOTY I’m not kidding. I think this is the standard of how to do remakes. It’s a pure joy and I love everything about it. I will reward it a full 5/5. Pure genius.

Hopefully they’ll remake 3 next or Code Veronica. Either one will satisfy me. Or maybe they’ll make Resident Evil 8 who knows but I look forward to whatever it is as long they don’t do anymore action games with the Resident Evil name then I’m happy. But I want a 3 remake. Since that’s my personal favourite one. And Jill is my favourite character. So who knows but I look forward to it. I’ll do my third playthrough of Resident Evil 2 and unlock the extra modes in the meantime.

I love Resident Evil. It had a rough time but you can always comeback. That goes to everyone. We all have a dark period but never give up. You can overcome and make a comeback. Like Resident Evil, it’s back and better than ever before. More good things on the way. I’m sure of it.

Well that’s it, that’s me done with another blog. Thank you very much for reading as always. Hopefully yous enjoy reading my wee tribute/appreciation blog of one of my favourite video game franchise. I enjoy writing about it. It’s history and why I love it. And if you do love the films (even though I don’t understand why lol) more power to you. I’m glad you enjoy them. I personally hate them with a passion. But good for you lol.

Anyway thank you again for reading my blogs guys. Yous are the best. Until the next one, take care, much love and I hope this is not Chris’s blood! 🧟♂️🧟♀️

Social Media = Social Disconnection

Hey peeps hope you are all well and good. Thank you for giving this the time to read this. This is a blog I’ve been wanting to do for quite a while since I think it’s important to talk about. And that’s social media and why I believe it’s not good for ppl and why imo it’s killing socialising. And how it’s a lie. I think it is a topic that needs to be talk about cause I believe it’s becoming an issue that’s heading down the wrong path for ppl.

First off I don’t wish social media should die or anything. Far from that but these days I think it’s used in the wrong way and ppl use it for the wrong reasons. I do believe that IG should be shut down cause it’s more trouble than it’s worth. There’s a lot of negativity, fake accounts, abuse, false positive post, etc and it’s becoming unhealthy for ppl. You see ppl post selfies but the ones you always see post selfies are usually the more unhappy ones and their insecure with the way they look. Looks are everything. So much so that behind close doors their unhappy with themselves personally. Their deeply sad and it’s a shame that a lot of them believe that just having looks, be in clubs with ppl that they don’t really like, etc just so they can show everyone that their fine and happy. But it’s a lie, truth is ppl. The post you see on Instagram is the opposite of how their feeling usually. I’m not going to pretend that I know ppl cause I don’t but it seems like ppl who use social media a lot are the more unhappy ones. The signs are there. Some are upfront about their unhappiness while others are hidden it by overly posting stories & selfies. Their taking post of moments, but are they really living it? Are they really enjoying it? Are they happy? Seems like that but you see the signs. Like their partying too much, look like their high all the time, looking tired, losing weight, over using makeup, etc. For me those signs are usually ppl with a mental health problem that is deep down depressed. I know those signs since if yous been following my blogs know I have ASD and mental health issues. But at least I’m upfront about it. It should be talk about cause it’s an issue that maybe you have to & my story will help you or others out. Also I post positive comments online. I keep my negative thoughts to myself usually unless it gets to be addressed.

Also on social media there’s also a lot of negativity. Ppl abusing each other, sending awful stuff in DMs, etc. I mean for the ones who follow these models. How many times have you seen their post/rants about guys sending dick pics, abusing them, etc? It’s daily and it’s not doing the females went at all. It’s wrong but usually those guys who do that are uneducated loners who have terrible lifes. Their isolated and unlucky with females cause they treat them bad, shut them down or ignore them. And it’s damaged them to think of two things in their mind. Maybe girls like to see my dick to impress them or troll them cause they hate what they done to them. I know it’s wrong and pathetic but remember that the ones who troll you are the more damaged ones. Best to block them and move on. It’s their problem. I know it’s a pain and needs to be controlled. Also addressed too. It’s awful overall. If any of yous who do send dick pics to girls please stop it. It’s not cool or right. If you are going to DM them. How about talking to them. But bear in mind that their not going to reply or even talk to you. And this is the best advice when you’re on social media or the internet. Don’t take it seriously.

It’s best to take it with a grain of salt. I know it’s overwhelming at times but if it is take a break from it and enjoy face to face socialising. Any interest or hobbies you do, do it instead of online time. Trust me it does the brain good. You shouldn’t rely on the social media. It can be unhealthy and lead down a bad road to can’t drive out off.

You ever wonder why many females talk about mental health & that. Is cause they usually have to deal with the worst of the internet. Guys who don’t abuse or troll ppl are never talk to, barely anyone likes or comments on their post and their online addictions is basically driving them apart from a social life. It’s awful.

We live in a depression epidemic. And social media is one of the causes of it. Theirs social justice that blow things out of proportion. Theirs gender wars. Girls hate men and men abuse girls. It’s getting ridiculous and it’s such a shame that this is our world. But it is. So much unnecessary negativity and hatred. Insecurity from overposters. A lot of false positives from ppl with hidden negative agendas. It’s out of control.

So yeah how to solve this? One is simply be a positive person. Don’t let negativity put you down. Ignore it, block it. You can do it. Also help each other out. Don’t be afraid to talk about how down, alone, awful you feel. Someone will talk to you. That problem very common. So don’t be afraid to talk about it. Meet ppl and be the positive person in that person’s life. Help each other out. Ppl just need other ppl to cope and be there for them. That’s what it’s about and I feel like social media is socially disconnected ppl from other ppl. It’s a problem. So don’t rely on them. Real face to face socialising is the way forward to true happiness.

Sure things are overwhelming but don’t be afraid to talk. That’s the cool thing about this site is that we’re all want positive things and positive ppl. Not many like it left. I think it’s cool. I know it’s hard to trust ppl online. Cause you don’t know really. I think that’s why I think social media as a social platform isn’t the best course. It’s more negative than positive these days. That’s why I’m only on Snapchat and Facebook. Don’t get me wrong Facebook & Snapchat isn’t perfect either. Like all social medias. But it’s more controlled Snapchat and Facebook these days has improved a bit. Unlike Instagram which is imo along with Twitter are awful places.

So basically remember that everyone is different and everyone has problems. Best to always be kind to everyone cause it’s really needed. The depression epidemic will end once ppl start help other ppl and actually giving a shit. It has to start or otherwise humanity will fall. Treat each other with kindness. Like Jerry Springer will say “take care of yourselves and each other”.

Also it’s not just me. I think Elon Musk said it best. Here’s the video with him on Joe Rogan’s podcast. I couldn’t agree more.

Thanks for reading and even liking this. It means a lot to me cause this is been on my mind a lot. Hopefully yous are doing well and enjoying ur lives. I just want nothing but the best for good positive ppl like yous. Hopefully yous are well and find this blog helpful. Anyway thank you all for reading this, commenting if yous are and liking this blog. I do appreciate it. Yous are the best. Til next time, take care of yourselves and each other peeps! 😎🤘🏻

My Halloween Playlist

Hey everyone, hope you’re all doing well. So I’ve been thinking of doing a Halloween themed blog and I also thought about showing my playlist for a while too since I like to share my favourite tunes. Used to do it all the time on my old Instagram account but I kinda stop doing it for some reason. Idk why cause ppl liked it. And I like posting my favourite tunes to all cause who doesn’t. It’s awesome to see ppl’s taste in things. Tells a lot about the person imo. That’s what music is, it’s a personal thing and it’s best tool to cope with. It’s chicken soup for the soul as they say (idk it’s a saying Stone Cold said in WWE back in 2001, god I miss THAT WWE not the current one lol)

So there’s been a lot of kick arse music videos over the years. Idk these days since I don’t listen to a lot of newer music. But the best music videos are horror themed. Their dark, gritty and creative. A lot of effort is put into them and I think it’s shows, it’s some of the best music videos ever. Well imo. If you have one, let it in the comments below.

Anyway here’s my Halloween playlist

Yeah there’s going to be a lot of metal here but give it a chance cause the music videos are awesome. This is no different. Cradle Of Filth are alright but imo not the best. But I do love their music videos, very creative and it’s full of dark gothic settings. This one is a creepy twist to a Fairytale. Girl is in the woods, a dark demon lurking in the shadows and chasing her. While the band plays. Also that lumberjack dude was creepy. Given me nightmares as a kid lol. Imo it’s Cradle’s best song, badarse!! 😎🤘🏻

Talk about creepy as fuck lol. Yeah this give me nightmares. I think this is the scariest video ever. And I’m good with horror, I don’t get scared easily. But this is next level creepy. The faces on the kids, the demonic face on the TV and that demon scream to the old woman. It’s fucking creepy and I love it. You been warned. But I admire how creative and balls out it was. Check it out if ur strong enough.

Well.....this is just gory, disgusting and creepy at the same time. Japan know their horror and know how to be wtf lol. Dir En Grey are a pretty awesome metal band in general and underrated imo. Prefer them over Crossfaith who imo are shite lol. I like how original and odd their music is. And their music videos are pretty gory, bloody, disgusting, etc so if you don’t have a strong stomach don’t watch. It is pretty out there lol. But I like how far they take it. Not for the faint hearted but that’s why Halloween rocks. 🎃🤘🏻

Tool is one of my favourite bands of all time. Some of my favourite albums are theirs. But boy their music videos are weird lol. Hard to pick one since their music videos are weird as fuck lol. But their creative and interesting in it’s oddness. I know theirs meaning in the videos they do but still weird as fuck but awesome at a shame time. I pick this one since it’s my favourite tune from Tool. Check it out and their other videos, they are weird but awesome!

Out of all the music videos, this one is probably has the story imo. It’s a dark disturbing story about a man who was in the war who has lost his arms, legs and ability to speak, begging for death. Yeah pretty dark but it’s really an awesome anti war message in the song & video. A lot of the footage is from the 1974 film Johnny Got His Gun. Haven’t seen the film but this music video kicks arse & definitely Metallica’s Best video imo.

Like how gothic this one is. Rammstein had some fuck up videos who this is another to pick one but I love this one. Since I love the gothic setting and I love werewolves lol. Check it out.

It wouldn’t be Halloween without Marilyn Manson. The god of fuck, the anti god, the gothfather. Take your pick lol. This is probably his best video but again another tough pick but I think the visuals are creepier in this video. Great music video but Manson is always having kick arse videos so no surprise. Tbh it’s not my favourite Manson but this is probably the creepiest of his videos imo so that’s why I picked it. (If you’re wondering my favourite Manson video is Coma White)

Rob Zombie himself is basically all about Halloween, dude is badarse. His horror films are not bad either, well imo I didn’t like the Halloween remake he done but his stand alone films were good. This video is basically Halloween written all over it. All the classic footages of old school monster films in the video and yeah it’s an instant classic. Fucking awesome! 😎🤘🏻

A tribute to old school zombie films in this one. Totally love this tune. I’m a big fan of zombie films, games and everything zombie related...well besides The Walking Dead lol. This video is like something out of a George Romero film and it kicks arse. Super awesome!

Sadly it’s the audio since I can’t find the music video for this classic on YouTube, their copyright issues are a pain in the arse. But trust me the music video is awesome. It’s basically Dr Jekyll & Mr Hyde inspired video as Ozzy is a mad scientist who turns into werewolf (yeah another werewolf inspired music video) and it kicks arse. Yeah sucks I can’t share the music video. But I’m sure yous saw it already and love it, I know I do. Timeless!! 😎🤘🏻

So that’s my favourites so far. I do have honourable mentions. Halloween themed videos, awesome in their own right but I feel those above me are the best but these are awesome too...

And that’s my Halloween playlist. Thank you for checking this out. I appreciate it. I thought sharing my favourite Halloween themed music videos was a good idea for a blog. If yous got any I missed, comment away letting me know. There’s more disturbing videos than the ones I shared from Cattle Decapitation, etc but I don’t want to get into trouble or offend anyone so I left those off. And also it’s extremely violent so idk if it’s against the rules but look it up on google & you’ll find Cattle Decapitation’s Forced Gender Reassignment somewhere. I don’t recommend it as it’s fucking sick & disturbing but it’s up to yous. For hardcores only, so thought I’ll mention that.

That’s the good thing about horror themed videos. There’s different levels. Some creative, some dark, some gritty, some fun, some gory, some weird, some disturbing and some scary. That’s why their the best. No matter what they hold your attention. Theirs something about them that just connects to ppl. Halloween is my favourite time of the year. I love Horror. It’s so versatile much like Sci Fi, single player video games and rock/metal music. Always entertaining no matter who you are. That’s why it kicks arse!!

Anyway that’s my blog done. Thank you for reading and checking out the videos. Hope you enjoy them. Leave a comment below what you’re favourites are and chat away. Until then see you in my next blog. Take care peeps!! 😎🤘🏻

I’m killing my loneliness

Yeah I thought I start my blog with that cause I think it suits me up atm. My ultimate goal in my life right now is kill my loneliness. Cause it’s been going on for too long.

Why am I alone? Simple. It’s cause I’m not sociable enough. I’m always too afraid or too shy to talk to ppl but I am doing my best.

Now what cause me to be a loner for many years? I got bullied and I fall out with mates that were not loyal, helpful or didn’t care. Also I been through two mental breakdowns in my life. One in Secondary School (high school for the Americans) and other was in College back in 2005. It was rough and for the longest time I was indoors being a hermit, which is a term in Scotland. A hermit is a person who lives alone, away from people and society. That’s what Hermit means and I was a hermit for many years. I missed out my late teen years and most of my 20’s due to shutting myself out.

It’s not cool or great. It was hurting my relationship with my family who supported, help me out a lot and was showing loyalty. I feel like I wasn’t a good person tbh to them. I wish I could go back and write those wrongs but I can’t. I got to focus on now & future.

That’s why my social media is full of positive memes and mental health stuff cause I feel like it should be talk about. Especially since I’m living in it still. Even though my life is massively improved. I’m getting there and I’m getting there. One step at a time.

No one should be alone. Don’t think like that, you deserve someone who cares, understands and accepts you for who you are. Everyone needs somebody, someone. No one should walk alone. It’s shit. You may not realise that til it’s too late. Having great friends and a loving partner should mean the world to you. That’s more than any money can buy. Ppl don’t realise that. Cause everyone is on the fuck ppl bandwagon and tbh I’m sick & tired of that.

Let’s get along. End all this bullshit and needless hate. I see it everyday on social media and it makes me want to quit. But reason is that there’s ppl who feel the same way too. I mean let’s all be positive ppl. Help each other out and end this depression epidemic we’re in right now. 

Depression and anxiety are both the world’s biggest killers. It’s up there with cancer. And yeah it should be addressed, more & more. So ppl can stop complaining over nothing, accept ppl for who they are (or don’t bother them if you can’t, just don’t do any harm), be kind, help ppl out and generally do something about it. Always be a good person, it’s not hard. Don’t take life too seriously and just learn how to chill. Find ur happy place and go there. 

Whatever floats your boat but remember every boat is different and you got to accept that. Don’t live that boat? Paddle the other direction. It’s that easy. 

But no matter what direction you’re taking, they’ll be others who will follow, help you and love you for who you are. No matter what. That’s a true relationship. Don’t paddle alone cause that boat ain’t moving til you have a loyal friend, family member or partner. That’s the true key to happiness. 

I’ll leave yous some of my favourite positive vibes memes. So you can remember that you should embrace your positive and remember what’s in your head is a lie. Anyway thanks for reading everyone, appreciate it and take care everyone. Much love! 😎✊🏻

MY LONELINESS, ISOLATION, DEPRESSION AND ASD (ASPERGERS)

Hey there everyone hope everyone is doing well. And you’re doing great with whatever you’re doing.

Sorry I’ve been quiet on the blogs and talking to yous. I’m pretty inactive these days. Reason is I’m quite down a lot. If any of yous read my last couple of blogs you know why. But if you haven’t, it’s all in this blog below

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Basically I’ve been battling mental illness for a while. Due to bad luck with ppl which has made me a loner for most of my life. And it’s a daily struggle.

I’m more understanding than others due to my own mental health battles and dealing with bad situations. I lost two of my best friends to an awful disease they both have, lost two of my uncles due to alcoholism, drop out of my first college cause I was a stoner due to being a loner in that college, etc etc. Theirs so much shit I went through to be the person I am today. Glad my life is laid back but I want to hang with good people outside of my family circle u know. My family are awesome but I want friends & a gf down the line, who knows.

Being on social media doesn’t help me either. Every time I’m on there, there’s a post on there that either depresses me, makes me feel self pity and envy. Cause I look at some of the ppl I follow’s stuff on social media and their just showing their good side & I think to myself “I wish that was my life” you know. Their so happy and having a blast with mates. I get Envy from it u know. I’m sure everyone feels like that. But I get it the most. Especially with girls I follow who always post pictures of them with friends, going out (looking great btw) and just having fun. In one hand I’m happy for them, I’m happy their having a great time. But at the same time it depresses me since my life is the opposite of that. I’m always indoors and in my room alone. It’s not healthy.

I wish there is a solution to my problems but finding something to do, the right crowd & proper help in my town is extremely hard. So I’m doing my best to move to close to the city like either Glasgow or Edinburgh since I’m from Scotland after all lol. But realistically I should be over there to get to A and B.

A lot of this is hard for me due to having ASD, which is Aspergers. Even though ppl never notice it cause I’m “normal” but I do have it. I just easily emotional and sensitive than others sometimes. Even though I control myself better that nobody notices. But I do my best. Sometimes when I tell that to ppl, I feel like it drives ppl away. Like it’ll feel like work hanging with this guy u know, but I’m so laidback and easygoing.

But I hate feeling like my mental health issues drives ppl away cause it’ll make them feel like it’s too much work or they rather not hang out with me or talk to me. Idk why, I do my best. It’s all you can do right.

Just wish someone could understand me, accepts me and appreciates me for being me cause I should be having friends. I’m easygoing, laidback, love to have a laugh, into nerd stuff, good taste in music, loves to get active, can cook (a woman loves a man that can cook, why am I still single lol) and so forth. Just bad luck and being in the wrong places over years has made me a loner. I blame the social services in my area, their terrible. But I rather not get into that. Long story short their history.

Yeah I do my best to cope with my boring unsociable life as I do. It’s all I can do really. No choice. But it could be worse. Least I have an awesome family, who without them. I would be in a even worse shape. And I’m always improving. One step at a time.

Yeah just thank you guys & gals. And thank you for reading. I do appreciate it, really I do mean it. I don’t want to come across as corny prick here lol but I do appreciate everyone’s support, comments, reading and just being a follower. And hopefully my blogs helps everyone out there too that’s going through a bad situation, who’s mentally unwell, etc.

I’m always up for a chat so feel free to follow me on Snapchat & Instagram at kungfury87. I usually positive vibes since I feel like it’s important cause I believe it does help to remind ppl that you’re not alone. Keep hanging in there and things will get better.

Anyway cheers again for reading, commenting, liking, etc. Much love

How Walks, Cooking and Being more positive is saving my life!

Yeah pretty much what it says in the title. If you’re new to my blogs on here. You probably know that I have mental illness. Have been for years due to being bullied, betrayed and used in the past. And also from being alone & isolated for years too. I’m sure some of yous can relate to that. It really sucks. I do my best to make the best of it but some days it’s hard. And for a few months I’ve been really down. I had dark thoughts and that. It wasn’t good. I still suffer from the thoughts. Like I wasted my years, I’ll never get a girlfriend, ppl hate me, etc yeah thoughts like that. It really hurts but luckily I’m fighting back.

I started reading up other depression, anxiety sufferers stories on the web. They give a lot of helpful advice and link to a lot of positivity articles and the such. A lot of reading into it and it helps me quite a bit. Also I watch YouTubers who go through it too. They give great advice too. Like I watch LiveStrider who has Aspergers like myself who is easily to get depression and anxiety cause not many ppl understand or even care about our condition. It’s a cruel world we live in. But he give the best advice imo cause he’s similar to me. And that’s when the walking idea came to be. He heavily suggested walking really helps the head and the physical of course. He’s so right.

Ever since I started doing the walks, I’ve been feeling really good. I’ve been more positive cause I listen to the get rid of any negativity advice. I’m telling you right now, it works. I’m reading positive quotes all the time, chatting to ppl online more after being shy to (yeah I was shy to talk to ppl online, I’m the same offline lol) even talk to ppl especially girls, I’m getting better talking to friends & family and feeling better about myself really. I’m getting there. I’ve been improving a lot and more is coming. I’m hoping to do a hiking trip sometime down the line up north in the Highlands.

Starting the walk has been great. I post regularly on my instagram at KungFury87 about it if yous want to follow me there. I appreciate that. I also post nerd stuff too cause I love movies, music and video games too. Currently playing Yakuza 4 on the PS3 and God Of War on the PS4. Both awesome games. Especially Yakuza, seriously get into the Yakuza series. It’s one of the best video gaming franchises out there. So fun with lots to do, WITHOUT ANY LOOT BOXES OR MICRO TRANSACTIONS. How cool is that? Remember when we didn’t have to buy shit like that? I miss those days lol.

Also I post a lot of my cooking too. Btw it’s not vegan, if you are. Probably shouldn’t follow me cause I love meat. Sorry lol. Don’t get me wrong I don’t hate the vegan lifestyle. That’s your choice. I do like vegan food too, but I like meat. I don’t mind ppl eating what they want to eat but don’t judge others by the food they eat cause that’s a poor attitude to have. I talk to vegans all the time and theirs no drama. Just cause I eat meat doesn’t mean I hate animals. I love animals and if it’s just vegan food left, I wouldn’t be mad cause like I said I love vegan food too. Veggie burgers are awesome. But I love cheeseburgers, hot dogs, streaks, BBQs, etc. As long meat is around I’m eating it. But eat what you like, just don’t be a judgemental prick about it you know.

But I love cooking. Maybe thinking of doing a course in college or do something surrounding cookery. I love it so much. See what happens.

Also writing blogs like this and even writing songs is great too. I love to start doing music soon. Just don’t have money yet to get a keyboard. So I can learn and play. I’m into music big time. Luckily not into r&b, mainstream music or dudstep thank fuck lol. But if you’re into that, good for you more power to ya. It’s just not my cup of tea. Other than that I’m easily pleased to music.

Yeah so basically I’m just trying to look after myself, trying to get creative, keep fit both body & mind and just staying positive. Also being more social. I’m doing my best, that’s all you can do. Never give up. If you got a goal, dreams and ideas. Go do it. Cause if you put your mind to it you can. It’s up to you. Don’t fall down to the negative path my advice. We all have problems but what to do with it. Positive or negative? It’s up to you. I choose positive and hopefully yous do too. Life is short. Make the most of it. There is always good in this world worth fighting for and there’s always hope. Remember that always!!

Anyway that’s me done with this blog. Hope you enjoyed it and find it helpful. I think it’s important to talk about it cause it does help. It did with me and continues to do so. Hopefully it helped yous out. Remember to stay strong and hang in there. Things will get better if you wanted it to. And try go for a long walk, it helps trust me.

Thank you so much for reading, liking and commenting on my blogs guys. Yous are the best. Until next time. This is The Badarse Mofo saying take care, much love!! 😎🤘🏻